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Torment is all that life contains but when will it ever stop?
The hands of death grip my shoulders as a sigh that it's time to end it all.
As i cut i feel so much better only to find it hurts.
Is there an end to it all? Is is there only more pain and anguish in the end too?
As i sit in the darkness of the bathroom and cut til i bleed.
I've always wondered if the world would be better without me.
Of all the rejection i have felt in all my 20 years, I've decided this is the only thing i can be completely in control of.
As the spots continue to fall I can feel panic as i can no longer breathe.
But I look at this as something that would happen eventually and take it with it's blows.
The countless times i've tried this before and failed. Because of my will to live. But now i'm happy to say that it's gone and nothing can hold me back anymore.
As I take my last breath and sigh a sigh of relief all is gone and there is nothing more to be sad, confused, upset, and no more cry about. No more pain.
As you sit back and rejoice for your problem is gone.
Everyone wins.
As i sit in the pits of hell and wait for you to join me in eternal torture. As my life was to you.