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I is feeling very ignored right now....T-T
I'm starting to get that feeling a lot when I'm on gaia nowadays, is that a bad thing do you think?

Tomorrow is Thursday and I'm trying to decide what I should bring to spanish for a snack. Spanish is actually pretty fun right now 'cause I'm actually learning a lot. Tis pretty interesting. Speaking of interesting, I have recently become very interested in my head in doing lots of really stupid stuff that its really a better idea not to do, just to prove a point to myself and other people.

Like getting drunk and still being able to walk and act normally even when "drunk" basically proving that I could still hold my own even while "out of it" and then starting smoking for a while and quitting easily just to prove that its easy. Like stopping giving my books to some of my friends just to see if they really only care about me for my books. Like telling everyone what I think all the time, just to see that they don't care what I think (aka people always ignore me anyway). And other stuff like that, I wonder if its just a fad, but its something I think about quite a bit for some reason. I hope it goes away, because I really don't want to ever drink or smoke, because to me those are just two really stupid things that I don't "believe" in.