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i dont like 2 talk. or communicate w/ any1.

i do like 2 write.

write songs, or my feelings. i started a journal 2 do so. i copy sum entries on2 Gaia.

but if i talk 2 or write 4 sum1 else, they take my words + turn them in2 things i never meant. triangles in2 squares. numbers meant 2 b letters. long words meant 2 b abbrev. hot words meant 2 b cold. outside meant 2 stay (inside).
talkin' isnt as real as writin' or thinkin'. my notebooks + brain is undisturbed by things outside it. my notebooks + brain r safe places. the words i write or think r air. they disappear + evaporate or become clouds in sum1s else's eyes. they r not pure.

in my notebooks i dont have 2 do things i dont want 2 do. im not writin' b/c im demanded, or b/c i want 2 fit in + b happy. or b/c im punished. i write b/c i damn well feel like it.

i dont have to use CAPITALS (unless want 2)
i can turn words in2 #s
i can write a paragraph or sentence
as far
as i
want.
i can start a paragraph

in the middle of a sentence. i can say things in (parantheses).
i dont have 2 use quotation marks- i can just start wat they r sayin.

[idk- wat do u think?] (which looks better?)
[I don't know- What do you think?]

< i think u have the point, but i wont b surprised if u criticise me>

do i have 2 follow the rules just 2 make u h499y? (happy)

ican write wat i want. it may not make me completly h499y, but atleast it does alittle.

y cant thinkin + writin make u h499y? y cant my brain + notebooks b enough? there r no echoes, no silences inside me (just outside). there is just me and the runnin' of my thoughts. there r no judgements, no sneers inside me.

there is just me
+ the wish 4
(i cant tell u) ( 1 of my friends on Gaia knows)


i have written enough
now i want 2 (think)