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just when we thought it was all okay.
The situation with Friday is... eek.
Okay. I never mentioned this before but she cuts herself. And I get furious with her for it. She promised me that she would stop, but she did it again two nights ago for a reason she doesn't even understand.
Somehow, her parents find out. And they have a long talk which ends in something like this; you've never had a steady boyfriend, Friday, why don't you go find one and worry more about your image?
So she comes to me and she says, "Uhm, Erin, look... I cut again."
So I flip out.
"And... a-and I think maybe I need to worry more about my image."
I flip out some more.
"And I think I want to go find a boyfriend. I still love you, though."
She always says she doesn't fall in love with gender and yet now she wants to go find a boyfriend specifically. I don't get it.
And then, get this, she comes back to me half an hour later and goes "I take it all back! I don't want a boyfriend and I don't care about my image. And I promise I won't cut ever again! I threw all the razors out, I swear!"
But that's what she said last time, and apparently she's cut twice (that i know of) since then.
So now we're... on hold, I guess, because she's unsure about what she wants now. I told her I'd wait for her, and if the b*****d she hooks up with ever hurts her he'll be rotting in hell.
Meanwhile, my new friend CJ had me help him break up with his girlfriend.
Now this girlfriend says "talking to you makes me wish I were a lesbian, or at least bi. Because if i was, yeah, I'd have such a crush on you."
And she's really sweet. We'll call her Sara (and personally I believe she's bi or something- she just doesn't want to admit it. because she keeps asking me what it's like, and saying that it's cool that i'm this way and that she wishes she was. so... maybe she's in denial?). And she wants to go somewhere sometime. And I'm now torn. Friday says I should do it and not worry about her but I'm terrified that she'll cut again.
This doesn't bother me as much as breaking up with Friday did. Becuase we're not really broken up. But at the same time, I just can't trust this girl anymore, as much as I believe I love her. She's broken her promises to me, and she's only hurting herself. I don't know what to do.
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