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Sorry for the lack of updates. I've been trying to cope with the loss of the my friend, but it's like what Kevin says, it's all in the past and it's best to move on. It'll be hard, but what choice do I have? Besides, I'm sure it's what Tristine would've wanted. She wouldn't want us to cry over her forever...

Anyways moving on... Time to catch up on the lack of updates:

7/1/05

I was online all morning and I spent most of the day playing Kingdom Hearts. I'll probably be getting started on FFX-2 and Star Ocean 3 soon since I managed to get to the boss in Halloweentown that day. In the afternoon, I went over to Farzin's house and Osama and his brothers were there. I hung out with them the whole day. Played mostly Metroid Prime in multiplayer with them. I hella sucked at it, then again, first person shooters are NOT my kind of games(maybe except for the 007 Agent Under Fire game Wahid has in his GC stash). I also played some Soul Calibur 2 and SSBM. I was pretty good at it, but I lost my spark so I wasn't as good as I once was. Seriously, I'm going to have to stay away from RPGs... They ******** killed my gaming skillsT__T! I also took some pics with my camera phone as a memory. When we had some snacks, there was cookies, milk, and Dorritos chips on the table. We all helped ourselves to a cookie or two, but when most of us tried to get another cookie, all the cookies were gone in less than a minute and only two people never got a chance to get a cookie which was sad and funny because Osama's brothers finished the whole bag. Farzin's mom brought another bag of cookies and just before Osama's brothers finished that bag, she put it away and brought out the ice cream and yes, they finished all the ice cream too. Luckily I had some, but it wasn't too much... After eating, I played 13(the card game) with Osama, Farzin, and Wahid. I kept on winning. I got bored so I went upstairs and played the Gamecube until I got bored again and talked to us and brought us gifts. We got bored of our card game so we went outside and played basketball, then came back inside for dinner. Osama's brothers kept on filling my camera with pictures. I had to delete some to make room for more. After dinner, I went upstairs and played SSBM until I got bored so I went downstairs to see what was going on. Basically our parents, Farzin's parents, Osama's parents, Wahid, Farzin, and Osama were having a nice big conversation. I didn't feel like staying around there because it was late at night and I was tired so I played the Gamecube until I had to go home.

7/2/05

It was the day I found out about Torrienne's death and got the message about the incident. I went to Boardwalk that day. It was pretty boring at first, but I went to a few rides, walked around the place, and enjoyed the scenery. I also went into the arcade and played some DDR, Beatmania, Tekken, and Dance Mania... After that, I got some ice cream and went home.

7/3/05

Went to go watch Batman Begins, then did the usual at home. Got somewhere in Kingdom Hearts that day. I beat Halloweentown that day, then went back to Atlantica to beat Ursula and saved at Neverland.

7/4/05

Found out about Tristine's death on that day. It was a pretty sad and emotional day for me... Beat Neverland that day in Kingdom Hearts and had to go to a wedding reception. I talked to some people, then went outside to watch 4th of July fireworks.

7/5/05

Already covered. I went to the memorial of Tristine and Torrienne Hunt. There were a lot of people there. I gave Dianna a ride there because we used to hang out with Tristine in middle school and I thought we should honor our friend's life. My group didn't come, but they prayed for my friend's life so that made me feel better. Only Vivian, Freddie, and most of the XC/Track group came. All the Chaboya and EVHS staff attended. It was really saddening to be there... I felt like leaving, but I didn't want to yet. Ms. Murray talked for a little bit, then one of the pastors who attended had us all pray with our own faith for the Hunt children. After that, Ms. Murray allowed us to come over to the microphone and say a few words for the Hunt children. It was basically two hours of speeches. Me and Vivian also came up to the microphone and said our pieces for the Hunt children. I pretty much said what I needed to say, even though it was hard. I know I missed a lot of things, I even forgot to say my piece about Torrienne, but I'm sure they would know what I wanted to say... They'll be watching us all in the heavens... After speeches, we had a moment of silence for the Hunt children and I picked up a pamplet on coping with grief that was avaliable. On my way to my dad's car, I saw Freddie and gave him a hi. As me and Dianna walked to the car, Freddie followed us and looked at us. It was hella funny. I bet Freddie thinks I got dropped on the head now...

7/6/05

My parents hired a carpet cleaner to clean our carpet in the morning. We would've gotten Extra Clean, but my parents and Kevin's parents don't get along with each other and to be honest, I cry every day because of hate. I cry a lot for my friend, for my broken heart. I weep because of life and my hope for things to be okay burns more than ever. That's why I will never hate anyone no matter how much of an a** they are. You never know when you'll regret it. I know I should try to smile and be more positive, but how long can I keep this up? How long can I stay strong with people trying to destroy me every minute? I'm doing my best to be strong and be more happy, but it just keeps getting harder nowadays, especially with all the drama. Maybe I'm better off taking a vacation. It may mean not being able to see Stephy, Robert, and Kevin this summer and breaking promises, but if it'll refresh myself, then I'll have to go do it before I become a complete mess of myself. After the carpet cleaners finished cleaning the carpet, I went shopping at Oakridge for a while, then went over to my mom's friend's house to visit. I found my mom's friend's son's(Zahin, not the one from YABAB) Nintendo DS nearby and he let me play it for a while, but the only game he had was Pokemon Dash and I found it quite fun to play. I did a few practice modes before doing the cups in the game. He also needed help with his Pokemon Stadium 2 game because he had trouble beating Pryce so I helped him beat him. I defeated the first two trainers, but lost to Pryce crying ... His sister wanted to play the mini-games so we did a three player challenge game and his sister quit in the middle of it so Wahid had to take over. It was really fun. Every time it was my turn to roll the dice and pick the mini-game, I would always choose the log-cutting mini-game where you're either Scyther or Pinsir and you had to cut the log at the line and I always won at it. Sadly, Zahin won and me and Wahid tied for 2nd place. After playing, we went outside for a bit and played some card game called Apples to Apples(you pick an adjective and the other players have to put down a noun that can be best described by the adjective and whoever picks the best noun for the adjective wins the adjective card and whoever has 7 adjective cards wins). I ended up winning. After a few minutes, Zahin's dad came home from work and everyone went to living room to pray. I couldn't pray for feminine reasons. After a few minutes, my dad arrived and took us out to dinner at Ma's Restaurant(yes, it's the Chinese Muslim restaurant). I found out the people who ran it were all Muslim and they all came from the Shanghai area of China. The owner told me that I've improved a lot in using the chopsticks and I was the only one using them to eat. Guess it's probably going to pay off big-time if I ever had dinner at Alice's house again. I had to use chopsticks to eat and to be honest, it was really easy to use after practicing a few times at Ma's Restaurant every time I had dinner there. While we were eating, my mom found glass in her food and we had to call the waiter about it. They apologised and my parents were nice enough to forgive the waiters. When we left the restaurant, they apologised once again and we went back home.

7/7/05

Normal day as always. I went swimming in the afternoon and I think I'm getting better. I might join the swim team if I get time to. I've made up my mind and I'm not going to do tennis or badminton this year either because I never got a chance to practice crying ... I'll do XC if I get time. I played Kingdom Hearts again. I completed a good portion of Hollow Bastion. I defeated Maleficent and Riku for a second time and saved Kairi. I can't wait to see the ending^.^! I had dinner at Kabab Korner. It was near the area(Santa Clara) where my parents and most of the other Bengalis in San Jose used to live. I wasn't a really big fan of the food, but the place seemed okay(it wasn't exactly Bombay Garden, but it was okay). After dinner, my dad drove us around the Santa Clara area. We got to see the University of Santa Clara(damn that looked nice) and we managed to see the hotels/apartments my dad stayed at with his Bengali friends when he came to San Jose. We also got to see the convention centers where Tonima's wedding and Fanime was held at. After a while of driving, I had to go shopping for personal needs and went back home.

7/8/05

Played more Kingdom Hearts. Damn, these heartless got even stronger. I'll probably stay away from Hollow Bastion until I get my characters to level up more and get everything I need to get... I had to visit some cousins and their children at night. The children are sweet, but they can be annoying as hell. I had a really good time there...

7/9/05 - Today

Woke up late as always and updated my xanga all day.