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I wouldnt listen. I wasnt thinking> All i did was scream and shout> He wanted to help me and all i could hear was hate> I made him mad then i cried to her> She saw it was me and not him and she got mad. I have faught with him before> All she wants is for us to get along. He is all she has in real life. He is her ex and he loves her so... I am so horrible to see that love now is like a brother loves his sis. I was just jealous and all i did was get mad at him> I am not worth her time... and now she is mad. She is not just mad at me but him too and now she is going away and neither I nor him will ever see her again... Why must i destroy so many lives and make thoose i love so very sad. All the promises in the world cant fix this. I wonder if my life is really worth it. All i know is she would be devastaed if i did anything to myself. I wish i hadnt hurt either of them. I just need to stop...