I've always wondered why I am the way I am...Why I keep losing the ones I love as a bf or gf or even a cousin...Am I cursed? Did I do something wrong? Or maybe it's just the way things are supposed to be for me? I don't know...I don't think any of us ever will. Just recently, my cousin Bobby Jo Lynn Hulsey was murdered and found in a corn field. I can't say that was a good thing since she'd just gotten out of jail for possesion and promotion of a dangerous substance. She'd been coming home and was killed by a man who left her in a corn field shortly after. She was found on the morning of September 10, 2007, the day of my niece Janessa's birthday. I don't know why he did it, or what she did to him to deserve it, especially since she has a beautiful daughter that will now never get to see her mother ever again. I don't wish for anyone to die unless they deserve it. Or if they happen to be my father, Raymond Lawrence, whom deserves to burn in the fiery pits of hell for everything he's put my family and his ex-wife's family through.
He tried to kidnap me when my mother and I were at Wal*Mart, after my sister Miki, who is his step daughter, told him she saw me. He's tried to sexually assult Miki and one of her friends. This man has lied, stolen, and has even corrupted two small girls into being thieves and liars. These two girls are my blood sisters: Kristen and Mary Ann, neither of which he deserves to be the father of. He's done drugs in his younger years, and I think he very well may still do them, making him a danger to my sisters.
Another thing I've been thinking a lot on is that there is a high posibility that I may have diabetes and cervical cancer, which may mean that I could very well not make it to be 25, 30, or maybe even 40 years old. I don't know what the future holds for me, but in the event that I should suffer a premature demise, I want all my friends to know that I love them and that they'll always be with me no matter what. Even if I'm not with them physically, spiritually and mentally I will be there. Right there in their memories.
With Love,
Dark_Shiori
Dark_Shiori Community Member 
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