I'm done with this life
I'm done with my experiences
I'm done working hard when no one notices
I'm done trying to be kind
I'm done smiling for others
I'm done caring for others
I don't want to live a lie
Living in the shadows
when I want light
But no more,
I don't want the light
I'm so use to the darkness,
That I feel that I've managed so far because of it.
I want to smile for myself.
At first I wanted others to feel my pain,
To know how it is to be me,
Only if it's for a little bit.
but I've stopped smiling,
And now I can't even smile for others.
My expression is only infinite sorrow.
My eyes full of pain
If only...
If only god gave second chances,
I would grab the first and live life again.
Why do I have this hole,
This huge hole in my chest,
filled with eternal darkness.
I've dug myself a huge hole in me.
But now I can't fill that whole up.
So maybe I brought this pain upon myself,
Maybe I'm the reason I can't cry anymore.
The reason why my life is a disaster and a half...
I want to leave but where can I go.
Stuck in a room with no windows or doors.
I want someone to find me,
But who cares for me?
I'm just a lost cause.
Forgotten in a world of lies...
