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Madina Lake
"House of Cards"

It's late at night the worlds asleep
And I'm trying not to think
I take some pills cuz my mind bleeds
I'm thinking what is wrong with me
Because the only thing i know
About honesty
Is every lie i told
That you believed

I'm afraid, to be alone
I'm afraid, that one day you'll find out

And you'll be amazed
At the secrets i keep
You'll be amazed
At my mouth full of lies
I'm too afraid to come clean
My life's still free in the house of cards

Now i can't look you in your eye's
Because the guilt is killing me
I try disconnect my heart again
Just so i can breathe
I wanna be myself again
But i just can't cuz

I'm afraid, to be alone
I'm afraid, that one day you'll find out

And you'll be amazed
At the secrets I keep
You'll be amazed
At my mouth full of lies
I'm too afraid to come clean
My life's still free in the house of cards

It's such a shame what I've become
After years of breaking down
My whole life has come undone
Cuz I'm trying to fake it all
And I know that you love someone
But that someone isn't me
Isn't me
No

You'll be amazed
You'll be amazed
You'll be amazed
You'll be amazed

(...)

And you'll be amazed
At the secrets i keep
You'll be amazed
At my mouth full of lies
I'm too afraid to come clean
My life's still free in the house of cards

You'll be amazed
You'll be amazed