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I kept my mouth closed tight
shut and sealed up
I didn't say a word
and now I regret everything
the days come and go
trying to find someone to blame
I can't blame myself
because I need to love myself
I placed the knife upon my wrist
Right then you walked in
I didn't move
Hoping you would walk away
Instead you moved towards me
I pressed the knife in deeper
didn't cut and i was unhappy
You looked sad
I didn't want you to see me this way
Your hand so gentle
As you caressed my arm
Taking the knife you kissed my wrists
Then you kissed my lips
I didn't want you to leave
But you gave me the knife back
Then you left
I can't do it!
I can't cut!
I watched the knife
Pierce the window screen
Then fall upon the roof below
Why did you do this to me?!?
I need to let the pain out
But I can't hurt you
Not at the same time
Not because of me
Noticing how you helped me
I ran to find you
Searching everywhere for you
But you were no where
Until I searched my heart
The strong desire lead me to you
Where you were sitting silently in the grass waiting
Then you pulled me down and kissed me gently
The price of your happiness is the vision of mine
Because i love you deep down to my soul