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	Heart Slayer Industries This is a place where I'll be posting parts and chapters of my novel "Heart Slayer Industries" for others to critique. Poetry, and regular blog stuff will probably be posted in between...

	Being myself
	Being myself


It never ceases to amaze me how hard it is to let myself be myself. It's so difficult. You'd think that a person like me would be able to. But I am so full of contradictions that it is hard.Sometimes I wish I could stop drifting. Most of my friends have certain places or certain types of land or something that centers them, and grounds them. Me, I just drift. Sometimes it's the ocean, sometimes it's the forest, sometimes it's the mountains, the meadow or the city. I don't have just one place to ground myself, no place that really feels like I belong there. I hate the state I live in. It feels so tainted to me sometimes, I have so much pain here, but with that pain there is so much joy and laughter. I can't help it that I'm always drifting. I don't like drifting, but sometimes it feels like that's what I was born to do. Then there's that age old question, who am I? I don't really have time to go find myself. I'm too tired and waaay to lazy. But I'd like to figure out who I am. But then, I'm just me, so I can't figure it out because a part of me already knows, doesn't it? So I just need to find that part me that does know, and that brings you right back to finding yourself. [img:49e1ef5f36]http://r.undev.org/?r=217578[/img:49e1ef5f36] [img:49e1ef5f36]http://imgs.xkcd.com/comics/anti_mind_virus.png[/img:49e1ef5f36] Lucky Star Rescue Adopt one until there are none. crypticxguide · Fri Jun 29, 2007 @ 04:03pm · 0 Comments


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