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******** ******** life ******** relationships ******** love You give your heart to someone you really stick your neck on the blade and they slice your throat and watch the blood pour from the wound they inflicted, they rip the floor from under you, the heart from your body... the love in your soul and you say you love them and you really mean it you know its impossible to love anyone else like you love this person and you lie to yourself you live in ignorance of the fact that if they loved you as much as you loved them then nothing else would matter..noone else would matter but it does matter and the people you took for granted, who love you-leave you and once all is said and done your alone with no love no friends and no heart your dead to the world and nothing can save you you'll never love again.. or at least as much as you loved that person...People cheat people lie all the time to all kinds of people but youll never know if they dont tell you and if they tell you you'll be angry but youll get over it but if you find out by yourself without that person telling you you know it can never be the same you know you can never trust that person again And even if you do or get close to that trust there'll always be that voice in the back of your mind saying "what if she does it again" and youll never know...So right now everything means nothing to me Love is s**t to me and im alone I cant do anything.. so thats it.. life means nothing then why am i still living? because youll always look for that silver lining.. you'll always look for an explanation that puts your mind at ease but you know even that means nothing because "Ignorance is bliss" and living in truth hurts as a matter of fact "the truth hurts" but youll always feel better for it because you know whats going on...

Sorry im not deleting these
I love you bri..
But ill never get my heart back