• It broke my heart to know that he had given his whole heart to her...

    I hated her long before I knew that he liked her or that they were dating. I had hated her ever since primary...

    It made me so sad that on some days, I sat in a ball crying up against the wall.

    You see, I cant do anything about it. Sure, I was popular but it doesnt mean that they would take my side, because being popular meant that you were fake, that you would go on the most popular peoples side. they were my only friends. i couldnt let them abandon me

    But,

    I wasnt like that. I had a heart that needed to be cared for. I was a strong woman on the outside with my true feelings shielded away. On the inside, I was fragile. As fragile as a cobweb. But like a cobweb, it was my only way of living . Living like this everyday was like shoving a thorn in my heart and that same thorn crept its way up and up and up till I could no longer stand to see their happy faces together.

    He always sat near me. To him I was his friend. No more than that and no less. He depended on me on some subjects that was our only relationship. he was popular as well. Too popular. i couldnt even confess my feelings. partly because he had a girlfriend that was a ***** and because of the main reason. I went out with his best friend. It was supposed to make him jealous. to test him. Sure I broke his best friends heart but he had forgiven me.

    Every single thing that i do would later turn into a mistake. I dont know what to do anymore...