dramallama I miss the drama llamas and gonks. Dood! Life is so crazy right now. I have no consistency with the people i live with. Well mostly one of them named Chrissi. I just feel numbed out all the time, like i am a puppet that i am controlling. Never feel or show my problems.
I think i might go to the hospital for a while. Jee Golly! Anyway pink floyd is amazing to capture feelings like pokemon. ooh i sound like a dingus. Let me tell you, it is not fun being in a relationship where i just feel like i am half loved and could be left at any given hour. That is stressful stuffs yo.
Meh, maybe I'll just turn invisible and no one can hurt me no more. I miss my brother though. He is getting to be an old sergeant and has a girlfriend. The thing is, this household makes me loose time with all my disorder and such. There is someone in my head and its not me, as pink floyd says. I just feel like I'm drifting farther and farther into that void i never thought i'd see again. Its pretty terrifying to be perfectly honest. I dont like being lost and nowhere. The nothing gets strong. It's so inviting. "just take my potion and you wont care anymore, you can just have the positive emtions and numb"
Tempting offer my good sir. Its like soul eater a little. That stupid devil that soul has in his head. That is me. But do i Have someone to rescue me from it before the black blood eats me up? That I cannot answer...
See ya MuhBoopies! gonk dramallama
-Val
 Sardine Thief · Fri Jul 27, 2018 @ 03:33am · 0 Comments |
