Ok, Let's see.
Alot of people lately have wanted to know how I've been. I tell them I'm ok/fine, but deep down Im not.
Alot of things have been happening lately, quite fast actually. I don't want to go into details, so I'll speak in generalities. But, things leave me with a feeling of confusion and pain.
I don't know what's happening to me-I can feel myself getting more distant and pained everyday, and it just grows. I need someone here to help me through it, but the people that offer, I just push them away and don't want it from them. I think eventually if I continue, I'll have no one and part of me is ok with it.
I don't know how to express how I feel anymore, or what to feel. I think eventually I'll just push everything down to the point where I don't need emotions. If that ever happens, I think I'll be ok with it.
Right now Im at the point where I don't want anything to do with anyone, and I just want something to take my mind off the situations I'm in. I'm tired at getting close to people and getting hurt.
I don't know why I posted this, considering I don't want sympathy or pity. I guess its more of trying to make an attempt of describing how I feel so I know partially whats wrong with me.
But anywho...who cares, right?
Alot of people lately have wanted to know how I've been. I tell them I'm ok/fine, but deep down Im not.
Alot of things have been happening lately, quite fast actually. I don't want to go into details, so I'll speak in generalities. But, things leave me with a feeling of confusion and pain.
I don't know what's happening to me-I can feel myself getting more distant and pained everyday, and it just grows. I need someone here to help me through it, but the people that offer, I just push them away and don't want it from them. I think eventually if I continue, I'll have no one and part of me is ok with it.
I don't know how to express how I feel anymore, or what to feel. I think eventually I'll just push everything down to the point where I don't need emotions. If that ever happens, I think I'll be ok with it.
Right now Im at the point where I don't want anything to do with anyone, and I just want something to take my mind off the situations I'm in. I'm tired at getting close to people and getting hurt.
I don't know why I posted this, considering I don't want sympathy or pity. I guess its more of trying to make an attempt of describing how I feel so I know partially whats wrong with me.
But anywho...who cares, right?
