im sick and tired of dealing with all this confusion. im stressed to tears and all i stupidly do is NOTHING! i can do nothing...iv'e tryed to stop the pain,but it grows. i cant seem to reach the sourse to where it will actually listen to what i am expressing to it. rrrrrr...my heart HURTS! crying .some times i wake up at night screaming and reaching out for something/someone that i can only hold truelly in my dreams and my thoughts.my confusion is the lover of this pain.longing, hope,dout,and trust make up the children of these lovers.
i can not tell which of these thousands of faces within is me anymore.weither i have life, weither i live,weither i have died or just simply sleeping. is it all reality what i see and feel or is it all a lie that i have constructed and become gullible to.
my wings have been broken, my heart shattered and my face striped away; only my soul remains struggling for life not even sure that it exsists for this nofaced, nothing that breathes and walks amongst the earth.
i feel that i am just an object being used for a universal plan. later to be thrown aside like an old pair of shoe's.what isnt seen is that for the duration that the shoe's were new and intact they protected the feet from splinters and glass that were placed on the path of life to decapitate and bring to a stop the wonderer.
 faded_warrior · Fri Feb 10, 2006 @ 12:44pm · 1 Comments |
