Odd... as I sit here in my room thinking over the events of the last few days I find myself so confused I can't tell up from down. Bobby didn't leave the Inn and I couldn't be happier he is my best friend save Chase. We had dinner together last night it was great I even had this feeling he was trying to tell me something... important... I see him and he makes me smile, and feel happy. With him I forget my troubles even who I am nothing matters and it's great. But that in it's self is dangerous.
But then today something happened, something that could change my whole world... James came back. I know that seems like nothing but it's not nothing.. he reminds me of Jasia. When I am around him I feel like he can understand me, like I could be how I really am and not hide, but that too is dangerous. But today... today he kissed me and my world stopped for that one moment.... I like it, I like it alot!
Oh Jasia what am I going to do? I can't fall in love I just can't!! No one will ever understand.. Bobby is so sweet and wonderfull and inoccent. Like a new flower or a spring breeze. James is hard and rough. He's been through the fire... like you had... He's like a tree trying to regrow after a forest fire.
No no I can't fall in love again, not ever. At Raven nothing may be what it seems and past may not matter but this is real life, not the Raven. I do wish Chase was here... I could use to talk to her.
Kitty
 Chase Kayol · Thu Mar 24, 2005 @ 08:33pm · 0 Comments |
