Sometimes I wonder "What's the point anyways?"
I'm thinking about seriously quitting gaia, I take everything too seriously here... So... maby if I quit gaia.. I'll become more active in the real life...
But yet.. wasn't it the real life I were escaping from?
If I'll leave, I'll leave... My friends here Wonderful new things The feeling of having somewhere to go
If I'll leave, I'll get... Reality More time to spend on doing other things (whatever that'll be) More time with familly The problems of having no real friend in the world...
Heh... I've lost so many things right now.. my best friend... the willing to live happily.. Because I've been so sick right now. Feels like every time I spend here takes my life away and I don't want that! And I'm in sooo much trouble... I'm getting sicker... both on my body and inside... I'm losing my lust for eating so yeah... I'm skinny right now. And it feels like my dad just makes me do stuff I don't really want to do.
It's no fun living by what everybody else wants you to do. Sit in the car driving through half the contry on a skiing trip only knowing that I'll get sick if I stay there. Throw up in the car.. Atleast my brother got his own life and is allowed to stay at home.
Not to bore you all with my life problems.. here
Have a picture of Mataki and Arji...
Mataki = victim
Arji = the pervert
 Mataki · Fri Mar 18, 2005 @ 09:28pm · 3 Comments |
