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I'm on a quest to explain myself. Not necessarily to the world, but to myself. A feeling of loneliness could not be explained in a sentence (unless a run-on), but to get the full details, paragraph upon paragraph are a necessity. What feelings are stored, what events cause impact, and what can I explain?

Finding what I need You know, it's strange. I only understand myself by looking at my preferences, but otherwise, I would be as clueless as everyone else. I am a person who constantly changes. My moods are never the same within a ten minute time spand. I'm violent, but I'm gentle. I'm realistic but I'm in love with fiction. I don't plan on ever getting married, but I always find myself reading romance. I'm a walking, talking oxymoron! Earlier, I realized that most of the stories I read have supported couple always fighting. I wonder if that would be my most sucessful relationship then. I really don't want to look into that though. I just want to know...why I'm always contradicting myself. I love the time I have to myself, and yet I'm always wondering back to large groups of people. I take pride in my individuallity. Only people hold me back. I feel a longing to be accepted, but really, I only want to be accepted by myself and those who really matter. However, if they really mattered, wouldn't they accept me either way?  midnight-mystic-dragon · Wed Mar 07, 2007 @ 03:36am · 0 Comments

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