Life…what you going to do?
Usually it could just stab you in the back or give you a hug.
You never know till you live it.
That is what I do.
But sometimes…. I wish that I could stop living it.
Because for me…. love has been one of my BIGGEST problems.
Yea, I love my friends. SO much! They mean a lot to me.
But I would love… LOVE to have at least one person…to love more than a friend, love more than a person, to love them like they mean the world to you.
I have been searching for a while now. Found a few…but in return I only got my heart all screwed up and broken.
Trust me…it hurts. It hurts like HECK!
Like there is a big hole stabbed right through it.
It is amazing in how sane (well…. to my friends I am a insane person. XD) I still am.
Most people would break down a lot.
Well…. I have had my heart broken about 2 to 3 times. And I am still standing. A little bit.
I still seem to have crushes on guys that I know pretty well. The guys that I have grown to have fun with and trust.
But they never look my way or seem to understand how mush I like them.
Shrugs * eh… I would tell them of how I feel…. but…I am nervous plus scared. Scared to have my heart broken like those other times I have loved someone.
It’s not my fault that I have a big romantic side of me. I am pretty much OBSESSED with it. Because every time I watch a drama movie or something with a love scene. I always wish it were I.
*Laughs* Even sometimes…. I wish I were emotionless so my feelings would just stop.
I then pause* but…I guess we all can’t get what we wish for.
So…I am going to try and move on in life, as it should be. Ignoring the pain in my chest as much as I can, holding back the tears that I have been badly to let out.
Because I should just face the fact…love isn’t coming for me…just not yet.
 -StaarShinee- · Mon Mar 05, 2007 @ 09:52pm · 3 Comments |
Walls around my heart that can't be knocked down by force, but of pure love.
You Are A Symphony Of Stardust....
