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Cover made of marble and pearl holds the secrets of a unique girl.
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No one understands how I feel. They think it is super negative, I need God to help me, or they think I am doing it for attention. I guess they are all right but I really do feel aweful.

I feel as though some mysterious shadow has plunged a crooked dagger into my heart and I can't get it out. I just want to disolve into the earth and dissapear from human eyes. Only the plants and animals know I am there. Sometimes I just lay on my bed crying wishing for death.....how I felt not too long ago. I couldn't find my knives. My mother probably found them in my room while she was cleaning.
I will have to go through my dad's hospital stuff to find some more. They are super sharp and meant to cut flesh. I only make small scratches. They itch so I rub and scratch them which makes them scars. The physical pain gets my mind off my mental pain.

I am so sick of people saying I am so happy, pretty and smart. Why won't they speak the truth? Something about their eyes tells me they aren't being honest.
Is it pity? Is it pain? Wisdom?

Zabethlyburn
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  • User Comments: [3]
    Kito Yuki
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    Thu Jan 18, 2007 @ 02:38am


    dude, you are smart and pretty, and really, when i need some form of happiness in my day i look to you. you've constantly been the one i could rely on to cheer me up. book smart is different from anelle smart ok. what is anelle smart? creative wisdom that only you have. you have so many ideas in your head that not even my brain could think of. and pretty. heck yes. i agree with what antigone said. if i was gay you'd be my lover xp seriously, i love how when you're at school, you wear what you want to wear, weather it be cosplay or just plain pirate boots. you've shown confidence i don't think i'll ever have. you can go up to a person and say "good morning" with a smile and ask how they're doing. when i'm around you, i can help but smile. you are contagious. and glompable. i speak the honest truth. and your pockets are always warm and welcoming to my hands. xp and get your mind out of the gutter!


    Zabethlyburn
    Community Member





    Thu Jan 18, 2007 @ 02:43am


    My mind had babies in the gutter. So it's stuck there until the babies grow old but then wouldn't the babies count?


    Kito Yuki
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    Thu Jan 18, 2007 @ 02:45am


    o.O good question...


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