Life is a screw to us and all to who live in life. Life has screwed up with my feelings and my friendships. It screwed EVERYTHING!!! before all of this has happened we were a big happy group pf friends arms wrapped with eachothers,smiling and laughing when the picture is taken with our funny poses. *tears* Sorry....it makes me cry everytime i think of that.....anyways. i just can't believe...those times are over. We used to talk to eachother between classes NON STOP till it was almost time to go to class. We used to make up funny lines and memories and laugh at it till our stomachs ached with pain. We used to invite eachother to our big slumber parties and have crazyrave parties (not really...a safe rave party) And stay up late and get drunk off of pop and candy and junk food. We used to share eachothers feelings and talk over them. Now...it seems those tiems are over. our once called BIG circle has been broken and we can't seem to fix the pieces up again. I feel so useless right now.....i want to fix it up..but....i don'tknow how. My friends are usally infights because of there feelings and cutting themselves or even THINKING of cutting themselves. and others....are just drifting away cause they are changing and they barly talk to them. I feel like i an the only one who still talks with all of them. My other friend is sort of the same way. She still likes our other friends but she doesn't hang out with them as muchas i do. I feel like we are the only one that talks to the two groups of friends that got seperated. *sighs* i wish this never DAMNED happened. i wish that our fights nver DAMNED came to be. I wish all of our DAMN hatered, rage, pain, and misery would just DMAN disappear! And we could be our normal (well....not all that normal cause we are WAY different from othe people.) selves again and laugh like we used to. i wish the damn cutting would stop........i care alot for them. And i miss how we used to.....i miss it so much. It just brings me to tears when i just think about it....or even whensomeone mentions it. Yea....at school whenthey mentionit or even when i SEE it i don't cry...but inside of me....i am balling into tears....i just don't have the guts to show it at school. so.....i wish for the best for my problem....and hope that it would get better.......hopefully.
 -StaarShinee- · Fri Nov 10, 2006 @ 09:36pm · 8 Comments |
Walls around my heart that can't be knocked down by force, but of pure love.
You Are A Symphony Of Stardust....
