Mmm...seems like everytime I write in this it's a sob-story. Sorry. Not sure if this counts as one or not.
Show Choir is consuming my life it feels like. I'm glad though... I need something to hold on to, while everything else around me seems so unstable.
A bit ago Scorp and I were going at it. We worked it out. Hope he doesn't think I'm trying not to talk to him anymore. I don't really talk to anyone anymore...thats just how life goes though, right?
I'm riding the bus to and from school again. Woo hoo. Because my older brother is failing. I don't understand how my parents can expect a ton of things from me, that I'm not even sure I can acomplish, and yet expect so little of him, and he doesn't even seem to care...oh well, I get to see my good friend Jillian more now I suppose.
Last night was...interesting. I said something about buying a DDR thing to lose weight and everyone went balistic...no I can't say that. But they got upset. I wish I hadn't said anything, I don't want to upset them; I hate myself for doing it. But the fact is...I will lose that weight. I mean...I know Scorp and Sango know that I will practically no matter what. So I don't understand why everyone got so worried. If I do get it though, which I probabily will, I'm going to play atleast a half an hour to an hour or more a day. I need to.
I'm supposed to write more to Just. today. Looks like I'm going to pull an all nighter. I've got 2 major tests tomarrow that I need to study for, have to draw a really detailed picture for my friend, make brownies, do my homework, watch the news, talk to my friend about choriographing a song, and now write Just. Fun.
I just want to sleep forever right now though. Oh well. I have to do what I said I would...or what other people said I would do.
 angel08 · Thu Dec 16, 2004 @ 09:17pm · 3 Comments |
