Welcome to Gaia! :: View User's Journal | Gaia Journals

So it hasn't been that long, yet it's been long enough for me to not write *shrugs*

I just wanted to post my journal to get that wretched other post out of here without deleting it and confusing my stupid journal 'cause it's stupid like that :3
(Jeeze, big enough sentence, Olive? xD)

Am I somewhat happier? I don't know, you tell me ;o
But, that's not my point.
I seem to get off topic in my mind a lot lately, you know that D: I can't even get to a simple point in my journal!
What's up with that?

Stuuuupiiiiid Dx

So tonight, I just feel like rambling on about things, but I won't try to ramble too much and bore all of you to where your brain just flows out of the side of your head (your ear) and you all become mindless, idiot zombies 83
Because then I'll have to beat you . . . all of you . . . with a whiffle bat (those big orange bats you know). Gosh those thing's are cool o:

I am . . . working more on art than writing these days. Sort of stupid though seeing as how I'm a shaky person (I shake a lot, almost like my mom who has all those medical problems), but that's okay! I want my art to get better so I can be charging, like, 70k here on Gaia xD!!
But that probably won't happen very soon. Give me about . . . 10 years and that should do it :3
BUTANYWAYS! (see, getting off track again. Tsk, tsk Olive)
Yes, working on art 83
IDREWACOOLHEADSHOTWHERETHISGIRLISLIKEALLSADANDWHATNOTANDITJUSTLOOKSSUPAHCOOL.
Okay, maybe not supah cool, but good 'nough, yesyes? Suresure . . . whatever.
I need some models. You know, people who I can order around and be all like, "YOU! Turn around, I shall sketch you!" And they all oppose me so I could say, "DOASISAYPEASANT!! D:<"
Muwahaha! Yesyesyes x3

. . . . . . I want to burn something again o3o;;
FIRE! biggrin DD
I hate fire, absolutly afraid of it, yet I always want to either set something on fire, or blow something up. Awkward.

Lately, I've been seeing this dog again. Boy I love this fellow. But you see, no one else can see 'im. I'll be walking around outside, taking care of my animals, and I'll turn around and see this giant, black shaggy dog sitting there just staring innocently at me. I ignore him and walk past him but he always follows me then. I used to see this guy when I was little too D: Whenever I see him I always remember that he used to follow me when I was a tike, but that's all I ever remember from childhood.
Anywho, somehow he seems to have found his way into the house. He stalks me around and whatnot. Sweet dog . . . creepy red-like eyes . . . but sweet 83
HETALKSTOO! O:
He sometimes says my name or something in like the scenery around him. Like . . ."green" referring to the grass or trees. It's like a wheeze or something whenever he talks, but he keeps me company at times :3



*five minutes pass* Hold on, I'm thinking. I forgot what I was going to say for a second . . .
Oh . . . it's been five minutes? xD My bad. I still don't know what I was going to say, but I doubt it was worth anything.

I wish my boyfriend was here D:
Gawd I miss him so much ;.; I wish we were together happily.
But how could anyone be happy with a fat freak like me? Dx I complain too much. What's happy and joyous about that? >.>
But I want him . . . actually I need him!! ;- ;
It may sound weird, but he's such a divine beauty. Mysterious, I'll probably never be able to figure out every nook and cranny of his mind. He says he's mean and cold, but that's such a lie; he's the sweetest and most loving person I know heart
Of course, he does have his moments of cruelity . . . but who doesn't? He's like oxygen to me and without him, I can't breathe, I can't live. Like the sun, bringing bright light into my dark realm. I love him so much, he makes me incredibly happy! x3
INEEDHIM!INEEDHIM!INEEEEEEEDHIM!! It makes me cry just thinking about him, because I know he's so close, yet I still can't have him T.T
I know, I know, I'm a weakling. But that's who I am so get over it! D:< Pssh, blaming me for you reading this talk2hand Your fault people.

Anyways, I think that's enough for now. LEAVEACOMMENT!
Tata 83 heart