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Well, things have quieted down. I know now that Vag likes someone else and at first I was really upset about it. I cried my eyes out, and told him that. My mommy tried to make me feel better but I wanted to sulk in that for a while. Overall it's not as bad as I thought it would be. Thank God we're still talking.

However I had to ask him how he felt and to sum it all up I'm a good friend to him and while I believe I'm a bit of a pip for cornering him into that conversation (I literally ran after him) I was happy to hear that. I wanted a hug at the end of that talk and he gave me one. When I was going to release from the hug he gave me one extra squeeze which made me feel better.

But after like a month and a half I'm better with this. I'm okay that he doesn't like me the way I like him. I honestly am fine with it. However, for the sake of arguement, if he ever asked me out, I think I'd jump through the roof, past the moon, circle 'round the sun a time or two then slide about saturn's rings before settling down again.

Yesterday was my sweet sixteen party. My birthday was on the 24th of April but I had a party to really rake in the cash. ($400 baby!) But nah I love my family, though I wish they didn't bring beer. They can't go one afternoon without liquor? That's sad. Well my daddy came too! I was really happy 'cause he said he wasn't coming at first and I really pleeded with him to come. I was mad with him, but now I'm glad he came.

I wore my older sister's skirt and blouse. It had big bell sleeves that were fun to play around with! She and I also made CDs with a bunch of songs I like on it as party favors. Well I went barefoot all day and my two firends did my hair, they wrapped a scarf into a hair band and said it was "So you." I looked like a hippie! I liked it a lot! I had to be careful with the skirt though, I don't wear them so often but it was fun to be in one.

I invited Vag and when I asked if he was coming or not he said probably. I was nervous that he wasn't gonna come. My friend told me that he was looking for something to wear and that he had to explain to his mom that he was going to a 'chick's' party. I was happy but when he didn't show up for an hour and a half I decided that I wouldn't wonder about it. I was having fun with who did show up.

Then the door bell rang and I thought "Well, maybe-"

Have you ever seen the movie Bend it like Becum? If you have- remember the scene wear that girl's coach comes to her house to explain what's going on on the socorer team? And you see the coach at the door and it's like BAM! There he is looking all good and stuff. That's how I felt when I saw Vag at the door! And the sun light outlined his body and everything! Oh my god! I couldn't help but smile!

I said, "You came!" and gave him a hug. He's like, "Of course I came."

Oh, I'm such a dork.

It was a lot of fun, I ate a bubble! ^^ We played True or Dare and I was scared that one of my friends would dare me to kiss Vag or something. One part of me was like you know that wouldn't be so bad, but the other was What the hell are you thinking?! Well the game was ok- but it got a little out of hand and my little sister joined us too so we took everything down a bit. The game ended with a firend had to lick another's foot... gross!

Vag and a few of my friends stayed later. We had a sword fight and I won twice in a row! (the swrods broke and we couldn't play after my wins!) We also had a good conversation about the universe and such. Now that's a party! lol Vag left, then came back 'cause he asked his mom if he could stay a littler longer. He was so sweet. And then left again. My best friend got sick and had to go home. I gave her some blessed food from my guru to help her stomach. It worked once with my older sister (she felt better within an hour of eating it).

Lastly we had another philosphical conversation, slightly lighter though. Then everyone had to leave the party around midnight. I had fun.

Now I have to go and do some school work over my friend's house. Chemistry is getting harder... WHY?! it's near the end of the year!! TT__________TT

Wish me luck! Lots of Love!!