Ok just got back from the Bahamas! It was a GREAT vacation. I had tons of fun and it was really just relaxing and a break from everything here. I'm glad I went. But now that I am back I am needing to set my life back in order. Haha got off paradise Island and it's back to Real life now. I am really upset because I don't even know what to do about my boyfriend anymore. We talk maybe two three times a week for about 30 minutes sometimes more sometimes less. I'm not 13 anymore. I need more to a relationship than that. I miss him and I love him to death and I want to work to a better relationship. I'm willing to do anything. I really am. I just hate writing these long letters to get three sentences in return. Taking pictures for him that he doesn't look at or act excited about. Waiting up late for him and he never shows up or he is really late. haha like right now. already 30 minutes late. Even these journal entries I know he never reads them. I think to night is the night to tell him how I feel about this. I understand he is busy. And I accept that he wants to do things with his life. I really do. And I am proud of those things. But That doesn't mean he can't tell me when he has free times. He wants me to get on at four in the morning? Fine I will. If that is what it takes. I can do that.When I say I love you and when I say that i want this I mean it. I will work to a better relationship as long as he does too. sad This sucks having no one to talk to about this. To have no one that really gets it. I have my sis Mel...But I really think she is getting tired of listening to my sob stories every time we talk. Ya know there is more to friend ships than that. I don't have to complain everytime I talk to her. And i really am going to work on that. I can do better. I love you all and wish me good luck....haha even though I highly doubt anyone will even read this.
MelissaWoods Community Member 
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