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I just... I don't know what to do anymore... Everytime something wonderful happens, something that makes me so happy, Fate seems to dissapprove and b***h slap me right across the face... I miss her so much... But theres nothingn I can do about it... I can't just randomly pop up in Florida... I'm so confused... I feel a mixture of anger and sadness... my throat feels tight, and everytime I try to sing I tear up... Hell, I've even lost the drive I had to make my comics... Why do things like this happen...? Especially before a day that I have all day to talk to her... I just want to bash my head into a mirror... Just so I don't have to see my empty inbox... I keep hoping thath things will get better, that it's only temporary, but the more I think about it, the more i lose hope... I still love her... But I can't even tell her that anymore... I've even thought of some things I could make for her... I even thought of a song... But that's all up in flames now... I miss you so much... If only you knew...

I'm still not able to come on Gaia full time, in fact I shouldn't be on now... But I needed to say something... I miss everyone, and it's starting to affect me so much... I'm close to buying my own computer... One more two-hundred dollar pay-check... I don't see the point in buying it anymore though... -sigh- I will anyway though... Just so I can at least talk to the people who know Katie... So I can at least make sure that shes safe... Listen to me.. I sound like a ******** stalker...

Bye...