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Ok, I'm just gonna start talking, because I'm really not in the mood to create a big beginning explain what I'm about to write. <span id="test31121777">. . .</span><br/><div id="post31121777" style="display:none; margin-right:75px;">
Well, recently I went on a trip to Venice. I felt really happy with myself because I took over 500 photos on both digital and film and when I looked through them I was happy that i got a lot of great shots. But, then I went to upload them to my facebook, I noticed some of my friends had tagged me in their albums of the pictures they took.
I went to have a look, and looked through their images. They made me feel so s**t at photography. Their images are brillient and everyone else in the class has commented on them saying how awesome they are, yet mine always go on ignored and if anyone does look at them I just get a simple 'like'.
Their images are perfect. They're centred, great contrast, quality, lighting, everything. Mine are s**t, most of them are blurred, crap detail or just so common that any tourist could take them. They are also so pixalised you can see it, nothing is sharp or captured well at all.
So now I feel imredibly lousy, because that was probably a once in a lifetime trip that I'll never take again and all I have to show for it are hundreds of s**t photos.
I'm the worst in my class, Anna and James don't even count in that lot anymore because they arn't trying, and all the pictures they do are perfect and better then mine anyway. Some people think the quote 'you are your own worst enimy' comes into play, but it doesn't, I'm just a ******** s**t photographer trying to make a name for myself when that is never going to happen.
My camera doesn't help either. I got a fujifilm finepix S9600 digital camera, which takes digital images obviously. It's digital screened unlike everyone elses. It didn't cost me a penny. Everyone else has £400+ cameras which take excellent quality photographs and I can't afford another camera. I don't have a job unlike all of them, I've been trying to get one for years and still nothing. I get £30 a week, thats all the money I get. Mum can't give me any because we're poor, she's just about affording to put food on the table. Dad? What the ******** about him. He just lives in his shitty flat down by the sea with his guitars and my cat, constantly telling me I should visit and that it's my fault I'm living in this crap hole because he gave me the chance to move with him.
But I shouldn't blame my s**t photography skills on my camera, that's just wrong to put the blame on an inanimate object. I'm just too crap at it, I don't even know why I'm going to do a degree it's not exactly going to help my 'skills'.
Right now, I just want to delete all my pictures and throw the undeveloped films away so I can pretend it never happened.
Sam.</div>
 MadSam123 · Sat Mar 13, 2010 @ 07:30pm · 1 Comments |
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