today, i feel amazing. i always do after spending a majority of the day surrounded by friends.
i literally spent more time with my friends than at school, and i feel so great. i mean, i got to be retarded, and i got to be open, and i got to be myself and far from my family. i felt like i had no problems. it was like summer, multiplied by three cuz there was no spontaneous drama and loss of friendship. it was just perfect.
and i feel pretty. like, i remember last year, whenever someone told me i was pretty, i would assume they were lying or just being mean for some reason. but today, when people told me i was pretty, i was finally able to believe them. it's a wonderful feeling, thinking that you're pretty. it's such a simple phrase, but it made me feel nice; like i don't have to dress up or even look good on a crappy windy day to have people see that i'm nice.
i just think i've finally shifted the ratio of people who love me and people who fear me. i was so sick of people assuming i was mean and rude and gonna kick their a**. now people seem to see more for who i am, or for someone a little closer to who i am. and it's a good feeling. a freeing feeling. no closet to come out of, just the confines of my self-consious mind. and i'm finally stepping out a little bit. with a little help from my friends.
 the_forgotten_thought · Thu Mar 11, 2010 @ 04:23am · 0 Comments |
