T,
you have ben my friend through everything. when drew tried to kill me, wen i lost my self in depression, wen i felt like the world wa about to kill me. you are like a sister, no wait.. my sister is annoying u rnt ur more than a sister. i love you so much T ... i feel like part of my soul is missing now that your gone. for the longest time i have been suffocating in the loss of you and chelcie. it hurts so bad to thimk i may never get to see her again. EVER. -whispers- i may never be able to see you again either. crying crying crying crying crying crying crying crying crying i have lost EVERYONE i hold close atleast once. Jessica. i know ichigo will eventually leave me. Tyler... oh god it hurts to think or even type this it hurts so bad, knowing that someday, i may never see you guys again. crying crying im trying so hard to keep myself from bawling, im shaking. Tab, i mis u like crazy, im going insane. i have to get out of this .. this... -screams- PRISON !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I NEED OUT OF HERE !!!!!!!!!!!!!! i need to be with my friends and my boyfriend. i need to be with you. you gave me so much strength. you gave me the strength to post this, the strength to move on, to rebell, to do the 'unthinkable' (acc 2 mah parrents) -wink wink-.
chelcie,
you are the one who pulled me and tab together. i cant believe how ******** wrong i was in 6th grade. i want to shoot myself in the foot, thats how pissed i am. i am so glad i met you Chamasa, my Chelcie. i love you like family, no, more than family. i feel so broken. so lost. you and tab where there when jess wasnt. when she abandoned me because i was myself. u introduced me to tab and shelbi and for that i will lovve you even more lol. crying i miss you soooooo much and i wish you would call or atleast txt me .. i always have my phone on me so... alot of what i said for tab is the same for you. u provide so much strength and shelter i feel like i am able to do anything. i openly talk now about smoking and s**t like that. i got courage from you. you wher never afraid to speek ur mind about anything. DONT LET THEM DRAG YOU DOWN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I LOVE YOU BOTH!
~Sonsarae Walraven (( aka : Pink Poof ))
 MadameX_XLust · Mon Nov 23, 2009 @ 01:20am · 0 Comments |
