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Ok so I ******** up
Excuse my the word.
But I have and I don't think my friend will ever want to near me again.
Great yet another thing I ******** up.
Well atleast I can't hurt him anymore.
Thats the only good thing that came from me.

Now I'm worryed about another friend who living or moveing away and how Im going to feel when he does

I am starting to get really feed up with liveing with my mom because of he fits, and yes there fits.

My little growen up and I want to be able to show him how to live his life a good way and not go down my road.

I almost 16 and want to start doing things my way and not act like I have two lives or two people in one body.

I want to finishe the book I'm written and be able to get it going.

I want to draw
Not have my mother and step-dad freak because I want a boyfriend

I want my step-dad to get over his issues with gays and bisexauls because wheater he likes it or not Im bisexaul and Im loveing it.

I'm changeing for me and know one else, some think I am changeing for someone else but I'm not I becomeing what I want so Im the true me and not the half and half.

I want to help my real dad get through college and have more to his life now.
I hope him and my step-mom work out

I hope my mom and step-dad work out to

I hope my brother can live his life the way he wants to and be safe.

I hope I can live my life the way I want.

I want to be able to be ready for the family I want when I grow up and want to be able to support them and my husband who ever he is.

I hope there is no more serects between me and my most dearest friends but there is most likely but oh well.

Oh one more thing
If you do not like, feel, or care about anything I have just said then don't bother commenting.

These last few weeks I have being inside and outside of my self finding the me inside and slowly bring her out.

I have been up and down my past and have been scared of what has happened to me.

If I could wish for anything I know I would wish for nothing.

Im a tomboy, a flirt, adnormal, crazy, cute, funny, and do have mood swings.

I love cats and dogs and pandas and lots of other animals.

Someday I will die and Im not scared because I have been near death a lot and its will be my time but I'll come back when ever I can to live a new life if I can.

I have now change my hair again and this time its red.

I have atleast 2 spots on my body that would bring me down in less then a couple of seconds.

I have always love death and horror.
I have love being the me inside.

I have lots of friends and I do feel love but I choose to not use that word anymore unless I know its true to me.

I do feel pain and some times I injoy it.

I do have a sense of fashion in my own little way.

If you or who ever trys to ******** with me be prepared for a world of hurt because I know how to fight how to protect myself and I have friends who care and a family who does not let someone get away with hurting a member of the family

I have more then one family
I have moms and then there is dads
I have Friends who are family
I have very close friends who are a real family

And then theres me who IS my family.


I do mean what I say about I will protect my family and friends till I die and beond.

I proved it to a couple of my friends already.

Yes I listen to people and help them when I can but Not always do I care.

I listen to my heart and head and body.
I read body langue very well.

Sometimes I can tell whats up by people eyes for they do tell stories.

I know Im a not human and I will never shun away from what I am.

Yes I did try a smoke once did not like it and never whent again.
But the smell is ok to me.
My friends some of them do smoke and its ok with me.

I love to drink blood because I feel like it is what I want ok.

I have saved more then one person in my life from death and some have called me a angle, so Im used to be calling that and other names.

I love kids and I love my job of babysitting even if I don't always get money because I really don't need it yet.

I sing and dance in my own way.

I help out with what I can.

I do have more then one life stly but I do prefer the country one the best because I grew up on the counrty and moveing alot.

Im a army brat and loving it.
Im in school and am a JROTC person.

I have my own mark.
Which is that when you see this mark you know it is me.

I want when I'm 18 and have money to go get some more percings and maybe a tatoo.

I love cooking and am very good at it.

I do art and other things.

I like the colors Neon green, black, red, blue, purple, grey and white.
and in that order to.

I love to write about my fantasy world, were I am free and change just to what I want.

Im a Seme and Uke fan-girl
I do love cosplay.
I do like some people at this moment.

I have had some really weird boyfriends and girlfriends but that what I love about them.
The weirder they are the better.
Then I'm not alone.

I used to be sucidal but I have promises and I think being sucidal is a waste of my time now because I can now think about what to do with my life and geting hurt is just apart of life.

I do see things and no I won't tell you what they are.

If you do see me and the real me be lucky because I'm working on comeing out and am getting closer so that every one will see who I am on the inside and not what people say about me or the way I look.

I hate sexiest people really much.
I hate jugeing people even If I do it.

I love to be the one preson in the world who find the missing link to the world so that people would know what is really out there.

Oh and some one must first understand them self before the understand others.