I think I need to get better at talking to people.
even when i'm with my friends, offhand little remarks that are the perfect tidbits to feed the little flicker of conversation, avoid me like i'm a gust of wind. I'm not creative enough to find connections in loose ends, and I barely ever look people in the face.
I wonder what it's like for French people who visit America.
And my whole deficiency is really obnoxious, `cause i'd love to be able to relate to people better and be witty and amazing and have inside jokes that can go in my signature.
I'm also afraid that my friendships won't last long because they're based more on our current obsessions than companionship. It's okay, though. I want them to last, so they will. If I can help it.
And another thing, I want to make friends at all of the conventions I go to. I want to be the person who can wiggle her way into any group and say the right things and wiggle out, leaving some connections on her way out. I want to be with people, not as the center of their attention, but still there.
I wish I was more interesting.
But wishes don't get you very far.
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