Wao, I guess Hibari needs one too, neh ? ______________________ _______________________________
What is this ' love ' you speak of ? It is nothing but pure utter nonsense. The word has no right, correct meaning, yet, it is said from all around. Perhaps that is why herbivores crowd.
They crowd because of such wording. I despise that. I loathe mingling among herbivores. Even if such word can bring crowding, I dislike that word as well.
Do not speak the ridiculous word in front of me. The word is nothing to me but one from a dictionary.
I see this all as a game. You can not change the fact and way I look at things. You are not me, herbivore. I have my own game to play. This is my game ; I do not plan on loosing.
Though perhaps I have already lost ; Upon every aspect of the rules and regulations, maybe I have lost this round.
I am no herbivore. I do not crowd and say such unlikely words to other beings. Because I do not see a reason to.
Show me this ' love ' you speak of. Fall in love with me. Until then, all of it is a silly game. Prove to me that I am wrong. Prove to me that this ' love ' can be as powerful as said. Prove to me that I am a herbivore.
That is impossible, though. I will not become a herbivore for a mere reason of one being. I can live my own life.
Do not tell me whether or not to do my actions. I do not care. You are another simple herbivore to a game to dispose of.
This game is your lost. ______________________________________________
I am not a herbivore. I do not have parents. I do not have comrades. I do not have ' friends '. Nor do I care.
This is how I live my life as Hibari Kyouya. You can not change me. No one can change me.
You may do whatever you wish to this body. But you will let this boy die as a man. I willingly refuse any such disobediance to my eye.
I might refuse your words. I might refuse your actions. I might disregret my own. Though, that is to my deciding.
Hold a gun to my head. Shoot. Let me die and fade away slowly. Let my body wilt and shatter. Let me disappear.
I will not care. If I meet my goals, then life in unworthy of living. ______________________________________________
Gokudera Hayato. That day will never come. You do not see what I am seeing. You are not in my shoes. I will never smile because I am truly happy. I am not a herbivore. I will not do such herbivoric actions.
Smiling is for the weak. They smile because they do not know what is going on. They smile because their reaction is worthless.
The day you see in which I reject is tomorrow. Then it would be the next day, then the day. Tomorrow is today, Gokudera Hayato. I will say ' no ' to you upon every request I do not want to take. I am not afraid to say ' no '.
I will not remain your prisoner. I am free. You can not dulge on my life. I will not let you. This is my life to live. If I wish to point a gun to my head, then so be it. Do not stop me, Gokudera Hayato. Your words mean nothing to me.
I am an empty shell. I live on what my accordance goes to. I do not care for feelings. In fact, I do not care for your life, or any other herbivore's. I am nothing. You can not see me as anything but another human. Another being that has the fate to die in the end.
Do you see me more than just nothing, Gokudera Hayato ? Am I that worthy of your gaze ?
Remove it. Remove your gaze from me. I am not worth your watching. I am not your entertainment. Let me die. Let me wilt. Let me fade away.
Gokudera . . . Hayato . . . How did you come to look at things ?
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