I feel really depressed right now and I want to cut myself. I know that I can't do it, but I really, really want too. The urges started coming back full force after I got into a fight with my mum yesturday. I want to stop them, but I don't know how to do it anymore. I wish that I did.....I just wish I could die as well. I can't stand any of this anymore. It hurts too much on the inside and I just want it to go away. Not that it will. It never does, no matter what I do. I need help, but I have no one to go too. I need to be around someone who will just hold me and tell me everything will be alright, but I can't have that either. I can't have anything I really want all to myself. It never works for me that away. I hate it and I hate everything about myself. I'm weak, ugly (inside and out), my family life sucks, and it all disgusts me. I just want it all to go away and leave me be. I want to live, but I know that I can't. I don't know what to do and I never will. I have to go. Bye.
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