color o teh day:
tickle-me-pink and grey
whee confused
im goin back out with kenny...
WHATS WRONG WITH ME?!?!?!?????? burning_eyes
geah!
i dont know what love is anymore...
i thought i used to but i guess i didnt.
*sigh* i dont know I want want anymore.
im the type of person who has to want somthing, so im lost without somthing to want.
ill just talk about today to pass the time.
ok so Jordan gave all of the stuff i gave him to Rachel, so that she could distroy it. She said that he said that it hurt too much to look at it. gonk what have i done?!?!?
among his valentines day gifts and little trinkets that i gave him he also gave Rachel his journal entrys about me (yeah, he writes in a journal. i didnt know either. xd )
omg i read them and i nearly cried.
they were so sad...
basicly what they said was how much he loved me and he wanted to be with me forever and how he felt with me...
crying
i tried to talk to him during recess but he hid behind Zack. neutral
then after school (after sectionals, to be specific)
kenny met me outside of the North Gym and we.. uh.... played a little tiny bit of cards... He's gotten better, but still is.... how do i say this.... he's jsut very... vigorous .
so we were playing cards and we heard somebody coming so all ninja like i scooted on my butt over to the corner and whiped around it and shot the person who was coming towards us with my hand gun.
yes.
hand gun.
you too can own one!
in fact...
everybody has one!
just form your hand into a gun shape and shoot away!
mine makes a "pew pew pew" noise but other ppls make a less lazer-like sound.
anyway, back on track.
so that person was Jordan.
suprised, kenny untangled himself from me and i stood up real quick.
jordan looked all sad and called Kenny a dirty liar (idk why) and proceeded to walk into the gym.
i felt guilty so i tried to give him an apology hug (yes, i huged him.)
he seemed a bit better so he stuck around for a while.
this, of course, angerd and frusterated Kenny. all he wanted to do was play cards and Jordan was getting in his game.
once he cruley remarked to me that he should ask jordan
"is it ok if i make out with the person you love right in front of you?"
i said that he shouldnt.
he took my hand and told me he was jsut kidding.
anyway, long story short:
i have no idea why im typing this. or why it even matters to me.
so ya know what?
ima stop typing. wink
syonara!
----------later that night--------------
GEAH!
MY HEART HURTS!
idk if breaking up with jordan and going out with kenny was such a good idea...
aparently it really did a number on jordan...
poor guy...
and i still like him...
im not 100% sure why i even broke up with him!!!
and im not 100% sure i like kenny!
but im not sure if i want to go out with jordan again!!!
but im not too sure i want to be single!!!
BWAH!
STOP THE WORLD, I WANNA GET OFFFFFFFFFF!!!!!!! gonk crying cry confused wahmbulance talk2hand emo
 TheMusicNote · Thu Apr 23, 2009 @ 01:03am · 0 Comments |
