Depression is what happens to your body when you are stressed, angry, or just too worn out. It damages your body and mind, making you feel like you're not wanted and that the world would be a better place without you. Well, I feel this way now...
I know I am wanted, that I have many friends here and in real life, and my boyfriend cares about me, but I feel horrible. I want to always curl into a ball and hide from the world, pretend that nobody can see me, and pray that I would be forgotten about. I don't want this, but I'm terrified.
I hate taking medication, but I know it can help me. My grandmother is upset with me because I wouldn't take Holy Basil, a natural herb that helps relieve stress and depression. But I hate taking anything. I'm the kind of person who tuffs it out, from being sick to having surgery, I hate taking anything to relieve pain or to cure me of whatever.
I just don't know if I'm making any sense. I just don't know about anything anymore.... I'm scared, and worried.....
 saturnwonder · Fri Nov 25, 2005 @ 10:19pm · 0 Comments |
