OMFG.
SoOoOoOoOoOoOoOoOoOoOoOo mad at my supposed guy-friend.Then SoOoOoOoOoOo mad at my best friend since we were 3. then So mad at my other guy-friend for not preparing us.Then happy with my ashli and kati who are on my side. Also SoOoOoOoOoOoOoOoOoOoOoO freakin sad because of the stupid buttface of a guy-friend (actually ive got better names then buttface but they arent very appropriate...) And my BFFL's cell phone fell on ym head yesturday night and i hit my elbow and my knee and my stomach killz...And im mad at "breaking dawn" cuz i got to the part where itz in stupid Jacob's point of veiw.
But all around pissed.
Ok if you want to hear the story here it is:
OK so i liked this dude. (guy-friend). Altho he didnt like me and i was fine with that but, dumb ole me, continued on with every girls fantasy with him in it.Then this friday he asked out my complete BFFLAD (best friend for life and death) and i can even QUOTE her saying: as a friend...yes...as a lover...NO (we were talking about how she felt about guy-friend.) She would feel terribly bad if she went out with him.so she hasnt made up her mind yet really. He TRIED to be sweet about it and apologize but like really? This was only a week after he agreed he did not like me.Thats way too soon to be hitting on my best friend.He gave me a hug to make up for it.That made it almost worse. THEN we had a sleepover last night.Me and her txted him till 3:30am.It sickens me.She said she didnt like him but shes like nearly drueling over him now. i can quote him too: you should probably get some sleep, ill be thinking of you. THAT SICKENS ME SO MUCH. And they were complimenting each other while me and him were talking about how funny it would be if we put a drunki and a blind guy in an obstacle course.Then of course she just has to put out there that he reminds her of Edward Cullen from Twilight. (amazing dude BTW) I picked him out for her pretty much! And shes thinks she sooo special.This just makes me soo sick to my stomach.I went bowling with him and shopping. AWKWARD AS HELL. and at bowling when we sitting on the bench.all three of us were sitting next to each other (guy-friend in the middle) and she put her LEGS on top of him...just laying over his lap! Even when i gave her the dirtiest look my too-nice of a me could handle she kept her legs there. They both try to act nice about it.But thats soooo not fair. [one thing im happy about tho is that his friends beat her with math books yesturday in math while me and my friend katie called him rlly sick names.]
SO MAD.AND SAD.AND IN PAIN.
Just Really Pissed as Hell.
Oh! And I kinda wanna throw up >p<
1 more thing: for some gay reason this happens every time i like someone.I HATE IT. I hate how shes prettier then me or the rest of my friendz. >p<
EDIT:
DAMMIT! I care too much. I can't beleive i jsut let myself cry.Now im angry with myself. stressed
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