I'm listening to The Postal Service right now... So yeah, I'm kind of addicted to the lyrics at the moment.
Anyways, today I woke up feeling worthless and horrible. I hate it. I had a bit of a freak out, but I'm fine now. It's been happening a lot more lately. I guess I'm just feeling so ******** in the brain because the person I love is gone and will be again in a couple months. I'm not sure what to do with myself anymore. I love him, but I'm losing interest, if that makes any sense. He means so ******** much to me, you don't even know, but I'm trying to let go. It's easy to let go right now, but when he's back (He's either coming back tomorrow or Sunday) it's going to be damn near impossible and I'm going to be an emotional nut job for months... We've been through so much together, it's so much more than just puppy love. Sure, we've only been together for about 2 months, but we go back three years. He was the only one there when I was having problems with Bryan, he was there for me whenever I was alone and feeling abandoned, and in the end he was the one who got me out of the ******** up relationship I was in.
It sucks to know that the entire time he just wanted to get with me. I guess it's okay, I mean, he treats me right. He makes me happy, he makes me feel pretty and he makes me feel alive. Maybe he's just the medicine I need to get my life back on track. Why does he have to be such an amazing lover? It's not fair. Hahaha. Anyways, I guess I'm feeling a little better. I needed to vent and no one was there to listen. So I guess the internetz listens right? Hahahaha. ******** the internet.
So I'm going to go prey on some kids... or play luminary. I'm probably going to play luminary. Yep.
 Bunn-eh · Tue Feb 17, 2009 @ 10:03pm · 0 Comments |
