It was morn, late probably jugding by the angle of the sun. My heart rate had gone down quite a bit. My breathing rate had increased. It wasn't likely that I was here because of any meds or over dose of meds. I couldn't remember what happened really.
"Hey you're alive!" My sister' boyfrined? Not the person I wanted to wake up to.
"Barely." I sounded worse than I thought I was.
He gave me a smile that reminded me of the night I'd first o.d.ed. They smiled adn it meant "We're sorry, you are going to die soon."
"So how are you feeling? Are you sore?"
"I"m fine. A little confused but fine. Why would I be sore?" His smile disappered and a look of sorrow washed over his face.
"Dude, what happened?" Even though it hurt to talk, I was about to have a panic attack. he avoided my eyes and shook his head and forced the smile to return.
"Did you have happy dreams?"
"DUDE! I DON'T EVEN KNOW WHY I'M IN HERE! WHAT MAKES YOU THINK I WAS HAVING A HAPPY DREAM?! AND WHY THE HELL WOULD I BE SORE? WHAT THE ******** HAPPENED?!" I was breathing hard after that and my eyesight blurred but I needed to know. He looked scared and excused himself.
A few hours later I knew I was sleeping. How? Well, my dead friend was walking with me along the path we used to walk on.
"Ok, qoute?" He laughed as he said this like he'd never died.
"Don't look back, the past is just that."
"Really?"
"Yea. What's your favorite lyric quote?"
He looked blank for a minute and then smiled.
"They are few who deny it. What I do I am the best. For my talents are renouned far and wide."
"Yea qoute Jack Skellington."
"Hey you qouted Eve 6. Besides, it ties in with my next one."
I sighed.
"Ok. What is it?"
"Any one thing in the world."
He knew my answer and I knew his but it was something we didn't believe would happen.
"To be alone with the one person I love?"
He laughed at it.
"Nice. At least I know you can still BS your emotions."
"Gee thanks!"
I woke up after that and my sister was asleep in the chair next to the bed. The IV had been taken out. I poked my sister til she woke up.
"Why am I in this place?"
Her face was red and wet. She'd been crying?
"Oh hey, you're up. How are you feeling?"
"Where's a voice recorder thing when you need one? I'm fine. Confused but fine."
"You shouldn't be! Not after that-" She cut her sentence short.
"What happened?"
She gave her apologetic look.
"You don't remember the wreck?"
"No. What happened?"
"You said you felt fine and started driving back to school. I got a call ten minutes later saying that you were dying."
"I knew it. I knew it. I god damn it all knew it."
"What?"
I was pissed off and it started to show.
"Let me guess, three streets before you make the left for the school right?"
"Yea how did-"
"Because that's-" I wasn't going to finish that sentence. She knew why after a minute.
"You alright?"
"Yea. Just pissed off."
"You think you'll be well enough for the wedding? Mom came home last night."
"Yea I'll be fine." I smiled at her enough to reassure her. She'd been through this once with me, I wasn't going to put her through that again.
 Island Tomboy · Thu Dec 18, 2008 @ 03:42am · 0 Comments |
