color of the sad:
black with blue and grey
sad
im such a jerk... today in science kenny was being annoying again and i blew up... well i kinda did the oppisite of blowing up.. i got really quiet and wouldent look at him and i fliniched away from his hand when he tried to touch me... he tried to talk to me, but i wouldent answer...
and all because of a stupid question... all he did was ask me
"would you rather eat a poop, another poop, rachels legs, or suck hy c**k?"
i was discusted by all options and so i wouldent answer... but then he said
"ANSWER ME!!!"
i just shook my head and gave him a weird look. so he said
"answer me, b***h!"
and i shook my head again. he got frusterated and demanded to know.
so he thretend
"for evry 10 secconds that you dont answer me that -1 kiss"
then i got mad. kisses cant be thrown around like that. they arnt objects to be given out.
and so that got me thinking,
he's so abusive sometimes.
i mean, he has his momments, but otherwise hes always hanging on other girls, trying to grab me, or being a class clown.
and he never respects my opinion... when i tell him "no" he ignores me and keeps on doing whatever he was doing (which usally is trying to lay his head on my lap or touch me in some way... i mean its not like i dont like him touching me.. its just that i wish that he would do it less often...). and he is always hurting me in someway. or calling me names... i just cant take this much longer! gonk
im jsut so sad, though... i dont want to loose him too...
crying crying crying crying
 TheMusicNote · Fri Dec 05, 2008 @ 12:42am · 7 Comments |
