This was out of my old diary. i haven't posted or writen anything in it since i started gaia...
ok so i have 3 i'd like to share xD
"12/3/07
I survived the night. Then more. I'm glad.
My mom drinks. A lot. She is like Karissa; she doesn't stop doing something if it harms her, and others want her to stop.
I hate it.
I want to smack her in hot tears. Maybe then she'd stop.
[~there was a brutal harsh story but i'm taking it out for veiwing perpouses~]
It all makes sence now, why she wanted no one in the house with her. Why she sent us with Chris. He actually didn't want us there... or... mom pulled the, "if you can, why can't I" card.
If it did fall to that, Gogo is the only adult i can trust. And this whole thing with Tereasa isn't going to end well. I'll eventually hurt somebody protecting her. Kyle has ******** up so many lives. I hate him! I want to give him a ******** black eye!
He made me cut my hand. I hate when I do that. I thought this was over!!.....
It's decided. Anyone who says another ******** bad word about Tereasa - besides Pri - will get kicked. I'm tired of it all!
He says another thing about her... I don't think I'll hold back.
Or, I can ruin his reputation. Yea. Eye for an eye! b*****d!
She broke up w/him because he kissed her, or because he was kissing doulten behind her back.
HA! I like that lie to ruin his rep.
Well, I better stop crying. I'll have to go face the prostitute now.
-bye-"
"12/19/07 - 12/17/07 - almost midnight.
I've decided, I can't draw for s**t. When I want to draw, the end product is s**t on a ******** platter.
I CAN'T DRAW MANGA! It sucks like hell!
well, maybe I am just tired. It is 11:47.
I hate it so ******** much...
I hate a lot of things right now. I'm so freaking mad. Maybe that's why I can't draw now.
My head is pounding- I'm going to bed now.- goodnight me.
PS-. today sucked as usual!"
"2/17/08
Hey.
Yesterday I went to the movies w/Terry. Lets juts say I'm so *!$@ed up. We saw the Eye. It was pretty funny. Terry said she almost peed her pants at this one part.
I also finished the shooting story that day. It was based off the shootings at NIU.
I have so much damn H-work to do tomarrow. EVERY SUBJECT! It's like they want to kill me! I hate it! Then i have to do AB(audio bradcasting) w/ that freak, Tailor. He's annoying as hell.
OMG! Terry thought she saw Paul at the movies! we both started to freak. He is such a stalker! I hate his guts!
There is this one song I LOVE!
"love song" by Sarah-(?) Barelia or something like that.
I'm starting to feel that I won't live to the age of 18. It's not that I don't want to, it's just a feeling...
I hope.
Bye."
yup. wasn't I just a ray of sunshine when i was younger(less than a year ago).
but now i'm mostly good. i mean, i'm pretty bad, but not bad but good and... i'll just shut up now.
if you've even read all of this... good job! *gives golden star*
 Elle the Werewolf · Sun Oct 26, 2008 @ 01:17am · 0 Comments |
