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My car was annoying. My joke chemistry quiz pissed me off. Losing my debit card just made me cry. And I could SO blame it on PMSing, except that's not even close to why the entire weekend sucked beyond belief and brought me to tears. Just s**t happening was enough. It could've been at any time, and I STILL would've been crying and freaking out for most of the weekend. The hormones only determine how desolate I get. Do I just freak out, or do I end up in a staring contest with a sharp object for half an hour? Both of which can be easily countered by a Hershey's with Almonds bar. Sadly, those are often in short supply when I break down, but not for the next two breakdowns ^_^ They were the only candy on sale at walmart!! So I bought 3, and ended up eating one to keep myself sane enough to look for my card. Turns out it was just in my car, but I freaked. It's my other comfort food, but it requires a ritual. I can't just stand there and eat it. I have to sit on the ground with my back against a wall, my knees up close to my chest, and eat it slowly in small bites. I don't look up from the chocolate until it's all gone. I always feel better after. Soft pretzels are also good, but again, they're not easy to get when I need them. And they're more of a weakness than a comfort XD I'm not kidding. I love 'em!
So last night, I remembered that I had a picture that I never got to show b/c I couldn't get it to photograph right (I didn't have a scanner until now), and it occured to me that if I'd brought it, I could SCAN IT!! I did bring it, and honestly, the scan looks only a little better -.- I mean, it wasn't the greatest drawing to begin with, although I did spend like three days drawing and coloring it, and the scan just ruins most of the good. It's hardly a year old, but I draw so much better now. And that one took me so much longer than it takes me now. w00t! I'm improving!
I just realized how little I've written since I've been here. A poem not even worthy of acknowledging, the little bit of the Aya/Kiri story, and the beginnings of Kiri's rather disjointed journal. Dammit. The beginning of it is so hard to do when I'm not sitting in front of THAT computer, or in MY room in MY bed, laying there thinking about it. I can remember what it felt like, but not vividly enough. My caution, my joy, my anxiety, the disjointed skipping of my thoughts. If anyone had seen what was going on in my head, they would've thought I was going totally insane XD But I was so happy, I didn't mind how A.D.D. I was at first.
lunch time ^_^
~nepie
*sigh* The Game is not lame. It's actually quite entertaining to make Victoria lose ^_^ There's a grace period of an hour between losses. I forgot that part in my explanation THAT THOMAS COPY AND PASTED D< That's why it's all pretty with capital letters ^_^ He doesn't type like that ever XP And it IS a real game XP We met someone who was helped invent it! Well, Thomas didn't, but the rest of us did ^_^
Have I mentioned that Thomas is the best twin ever? xD
 nepie · Mon Sep 29, 2008 @ 05:42pm · 0 Comments |
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