I know you will never read this but I have to write it to you all the same. You were my friend. You were a very close friend. I never had any idea that you couldn't stand me. I loved you, yes and if you thought that I was still trying to get together with you you were wrong. I just wanted to be friends. I knew you didn't feel that way about me and I respected that. I just wanted to stay friends with you because you were a good friend. You told me that you thought of me as a cherished friend. What was that? A lie? Was it all a lie? I always thought that we had a very good friendship going on. I trusted you. You were always so kind to me. If that whole friendship was a lie then you are a good lier. I never had the slightest clue that you didn't like me. I'm sorry for what ever I did to make you not like me but I wish you could've told me in a nicer way. It probably wouldn't have hurt so much if you said it nicer. But you should've told me sooner because then I wouldn't have annoyed you all summer trying to get ahold of you. When you told me that if I wanted to hang out over the summer to call you. Or when you said that you would come and see me if I got a part in that play. I took it literaly. I usually do take things like that literaly. Now, we've known each other for about five years. I want to know how many of those years you disliked me. Actually, hated me. From how you wrote that text I have a feeling that you hate me. Do you know how much it hurts to be stabbed in the back by a friend? Do you know why I wrote that monolouge this past year? Do you know at all how much that hurts?! No you don't because if you did you wouldn't have been so nice to me pretending that you were my friend. You wouldn't want to make someone else feel that way at all. If you ever do read this by some crazy chance think about how you made me feel by pretending to be my friend. You had told me to get over you. Well guess what I was over you! I just wanted to be your friend. Nothing more. I loved you , yes but I love all my friends more than anything! Why do you hate me? I just don't understand it at all. I want an explination. Please give me an explination.
Soi of the abyss Community Member 
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