Yep. It's finally official. I am no longer Alisyn Coleman.
It's a bit weird...I feel as if I am ripping off half of my identity. Even though it's been half a year since all this major obsession started, including the addition of my surname, I feel as if the past half year was my entire life. Like...I've always been Alisyn Coleman...haven't I?
I journaled my feelings about the divorce one boring day in school. Maybe I'll post them on here if I get to feeling like it.
Anyway, all you should know now is that Demyx is now free of me...and I of him, I suppose. Yes...I was the one who first filed for divorce...but all that is further explained in my journals. Which are not the subject of this blog.
I really don't think I should have gotten my children's custody...I will be just as neglectful of them as always. But then again...Demyx doesn't even remember their names, thanks to me, so I suppose it wouldn't be good to pronounce him their guardian. It sort of amuses me to think how bewildered he would be, when he's already so confused about this sudden divorce from a woman he has no memory of!
Ah...well, that's all for now. I guess I'm single. And this long drama with my ex-husband is over. I've cut the cord.
I still haven't been able to let go of the worry that kept me from filing for divorce in the first place: the worry about whether I've done the right thing...
Pfft, who am I kidding? I'm sixteen, for crying out loud! I shouldn't be worrying about this! I'm not married! Geez! Lol.
That's it. Enjoy how seriously I take this situation. =)
 LadyAlisyn · Tue May 20, 2008 @ 03:11am · 1 Comments |
