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The other night...I have been thinking.
[and no Che....its not your fault. I've thought of this waaaaaaay before your story but your story just got me rethinking it again...and I just want to let it out]
What happens after Highschool?
When you have graduated and got your diploma....what happens next?
Have you figured your future out?
I haven't...
I am debating either I want to study writing to become a writer or study art so I can become a good artist.
But those seem all high and mighty dreams to fulfill.
I remeber I want to become a Vet.
[I still sort of do]
But the grades I'm getting in Biology isn't showing the results of that dream very well...
But once I DO figure out what I want to be, where will I go?
Where will I live?
How well would that life become?
Will I move out of this hometown of mine that I have been in since the begining of my birth, or move to some place new?
I remeber I thought of moving, dreaming of seeing different surrondings....but the more I think about it... I was never dreaming of moving to those places. I was just dreaming to see them. Not stay at all.
I find it hard to leave the place that I have grown so attached too. The place where I have made my best and my worst memories.
The place...where I became me.
And with the help of the people I care most in this world.
My friends.
Thinking of the future that will soon come to me makes me go in tears, thinking what will happen.
Because for one...I know that the people that I care and me will soon depart, and not see eachother anymore. To busy persueing our dream.
I'm not trying to be selfish or anything, I actually support and encourage them to do what their heart desires, but being away from them...I don't know how I will last.
People may think Highschool never ends [*wink wink*] But I disagree.
I say it does end, once you walk through those doors to adulthood, and leave Teenhood [I don't know what you call it!?!] behind.
I know Memories last, but not as long as we think they will.
We will soon forget in the mere future, forget most of our childhood and highschool years. Forget our friends?
I find it hard to believe, but I just hope you wont.
And most important...I hope they wont forget me.
When they take that mighty step towards their dream, I'm afraid they are taking one mighty step away from me. But I know for sure I wont stop them and wish for the best becuase I know you guys will forever be in my heart since I love all of you so much.
But why dwel about the future...when we are all in the Present right now.
Soon these thoughts will leave and I will continue to enjoy what I have now, what I have yet still in my grasp.
Because soon, all of you will spread out your wings and fly away.
I love all you guys, to the very bottom of my heart and I hope you will NEVER forget that.
I'm glad of what I have now.
Forever your friend,
Captain Noya
[who is half frightened of the future]
 -StaarShinee- · Sun Jan 20, 2008 @ 10:55pm · 6 Comments |
Walls around my heart that can't be knocked down by force, but of pure love.
You Are A Symphony Of Stardust....
