Mood ~Aracnid~
Today has moved like a dream. Time passing slowly and moments intertwining to create a myth-like reality that only I can see. The overcast skies and the light spattering of rain only increase the sense of spinning endlessly in a space of nothingness.
Today I stayed home ((It's bloody storming scream )) I woke up at two-thirty in the morning and I couldn't go back to sleep for about another hour stressed gonk So I'm really tired and not feeling quite up to suffering fools nonsense at that damnable school of mine...though I claim no allegiance to that place stare
Not only that...I am putting off coming in contact with a particular stalker of mine... stressed One I can't avoid unless he's absent from class or I am...Not wanting to gamble on whether or not he will be, I decided it was best for me to stay home, though that isn't the reason I stayed home of course. He is in my art class. While I find him, intriguing to talk to he most definitely IS NOT my type. To hell with it all!
I feel like a Black Widow sometimes. I find an interesting person. I might like them for a while but then...I want to gnaw of their head and devour the remains of their corpse! domokun stressed I'm not always like that, true enough, but a lot of the time I am. Sometimes I just skip right to wanting to gnaw off their heads! scream
Now back to the basics of all my problems...my eccentricy. crying Why would something that seems like a blessing turn out to be a curse. I'm not sure...that one had said to me...it?s all a matter of perspective. sweatdrop One problem I have that may or may not be related to this is the matter of indecision. I'm two minds about everything. I'll decide on something then promptly change my mind.
My moods also have a way of changing. One day I could be happy and cheerful. Considerate and very personal. Overall way nicer that I am most of the time. Then a sudden change of heart and I become like Kain the Evil One!! I am bitchy and overall withdrawn. Then I'll change again to a different personality. For this, I am deeply sorry. If ever I snap at you or suddenly become cynical, I'm sorry crying
Off to lunch now... heart
 Paranine · Tue Oct 26, 2004 @ 09:20pm · 4 Comments |
