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k, i have alot to say, and i better hurry up and say it
there is this guy who is a really close friend of mine that i like.
i mean, we are tight, and i don't wanna ruin our friendship by telling him i liike him
so... me, him, and 2 other friends were at a friends house for a cookout thingy
as a joke (i wasn't joking) he put his arm around me and my friend amber's shoulders. he did that all night and stuff, and i even put my hand in his pocket (it was cold it i thought it would be funny. i wasn't trying to feel anything peiople), and stuff. they... when we get int he house after the bon fire, i sat next to him on this really cramped couch, snuggling against him and cuddling in a non-flirty like way. amber does the same thing to, us trading off now and then. then... while i wasn't cuddle with him but laying inbetween ambers legs on the same couch thingy (don't be perverted guys. i wasn't doing anything. you'd have to be there to know) he appearently tried to kiss amber , but she rejected. i didn't know this till the next 2 days... i laughed, hiding my sadness cuz i wasnted him to like me... not amber. i felt like a third wheel. i'm kinda happy that amber refused to, but he chose her over me... gee.
well, i guess there's nothing i can do now... i happened, and i was right there. that night, i had not gone to sleep, and when i did... i think i was in his arms again. i'm pretty sure i was... but only for an hour. to be completely honest, i couldn't sleep that night cuz imissed being in his arms... god i'm sad
again, yu'd have to of been there and experience it.
i knew that he had like me once before, but i guess he figured out that we cou'dn't go out or anything cuz of our situation. u see, he knows my mom and my sis... he actually lives with her. (long story) so, if we did go out, we would need all of thier approval, and it would be very akward for us, and if it didn't work out, it would be akward then. i want to forget about him and all, but i fgeel compelled to him almost.
it's a good thing i'm not saying what his name is... that couldn't be safe at all. i wonder what he's up to now? hw wasn't here at sachool today, so i couldn't beat the crap out of him for telling my sis what happened on saturday with the cuddling and the pockets... i would of kicked him al least once in the leg.
i had fun and all, cuz at that time ididn't know... which is a good thing.
well, that's it for now
 marluxiasflower · Tue Oct 30, 2007 @ 09:59pm · 1 Comments |
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