Frozen.
My hands almost ice
Following the lead of my heart—
They drink up the sun
Bringing no real numbness
Only false joy--
Leaving not a drop left come dusk.
A blizzard of conflicting emotions
Battling each other—I watch from outside
--Not even sure what to feel anymore
(Other then the dejection you so easily placed upon me.)
I cut the dead ends off
--Make room for growth
Still they return, stronger then ever
Or maybe I’ve just grown weaker
--My voice a whisper in the wind
Carrying it away from this place
How much I long to be brought as well—
(I want to start it over.
I want it to be all right.)
As I tremble endlessly
An earthquake from the inside
--Knocking it down—crashing my brain with insults
--Now lining my veins
And I stand here tonight
Everything’s fine.
(At least in their eyes.)
I read the labels—
‘Open one bag’
‘See why we’re the best’
Propaganda.
Biting into it all—it wasn’t the dreamboat I thought of
Instead I pretend
--Won’t risk your displeasure
When rejection is only the beginning
And I see your face lacking any understanding
A mob of apprentices studying your methods
I suppose you’re not the only one..
A veil of hair concealing my face
Just as I like it—
Hidden while the tears flow, and my eyes redden
You pull it away—
Clip it up and so obliviously attempt to ‘help’
--Choking down the tears—
I grin and bear it
While the world shocks me
--Just another cold slap in the face.
Tangled in these nightmares—
I plead my mind to waken
Running for the door
--Only when I fall—
I realize I was never asleep.
Sipping past memories
--I look back to when love was four letters
Bring back to me a first kiss
--A throbbing heart.
A single rose.
Now lying in a murky puddle
As the rain falls down
And it sheds pedals one by one—
(Shedding its life away)
Only to reveal an ugly core—
Why don’t you do the same?
Show me your heart.
Like a six year old
You play dress up with me
Only you’re the one in charge—
And I try so hard to please you
While you mock with glee
Each piece you place inside me—another hollow trait
Yet it’ll always be a part of me.
(Corruption thanks to you.)
 angel08 · Thu Oct 21, 2004 @ 07:12pm · 0 Comments |
