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User Image Walls around my heart that can't be knocked down by force, but of pure love.
Friends I care about and love, please read. (I'm sorry)
(I had to re type this becasue some how...it didn't get ON it!! *twitches* So it wouldn't be as good. Sorry. ^^' And comment please so I know you read it...ok?)

I hope you are reading this guys, because I have to get something off of my chest.
Something that I feel SO terrible about and I thought you guys should know. I haven't been having the best day of days. And I just feel like s**t today. (excuse my swearing, I have a good reason too.)
So I hope you will read so I can explian my mishaps and mistakes so I can make it up to you guys.

First off,
I'm sorry.
Now, let me continue in what I am sorry about.
I'm sorry for being an a**.
(let me contonue)
As you all know, I was 'bragging' and 'teasing' about the book, "Elclipse"
And I am sorry.
Very sorry about it.
I was just over excited and such fromt he book and I had to let it all out.
But I guess I let it out the wrong way.
And so, I just feel so horrible about it and such, and hope you guys will forgive me and aren't to mad at my bad choices and mistakes.
I admit, I was an a*****e and such.
And I bet you would agree.
I guess I was just too....excited.
And again, I am SO sorry!
When you guys get the book and read it, I hope we can all talk about it and state out our opinions in the matter.
If your not to mad atme and forgive me.
I would really enjoy if we all could talk about it and let out it.
I hate it when I have to hold it in.
Not the best feelings.
So again, I would like to say I am sorry.
And for being the biggest a** there is inthe world.
I hopeyou guys will forgive me soon and such.
I can't stand losing my Best Friends.

Second,
Yesturday wasn't all that good.
Alright, let me staright from Sunday.
That morning on Sunday, I went down stairs and saw Boots (My cat. you guys should know him. My baby. ^_^).
When I called out to him, he didn't look at him.
He was VERY slow, which was unusal.
He isn't THAT slow!
And he looked so skinny, like he lost weight and he just didn't look so good.
It got me worried.
So worried and scared.
I was afraid that he got some kind of "Cat dying diease" or something.
I didn't want to lose my Cat.
Two friends of mine lost theres, and that made me sad because its like losing my own cats too.
And I didn't want to lose Boots too.
So me and my Mom took Boots tot he vets office yesturday to get him checked up.
He didn't pee and freak out at ALL!
Which was definatly unlike him!
So we got it checked out and turns out that he has a low blood sugar, low liver levels, and dyhydrated.
MAN!
Thats a LOT!
So, it turns out he had some kind of Stomach flu which made him eat less so thats how he lost weight and dyhydrated and low liver levels.
So, Boots had to stay over night at the vets so they can get some fluids into him.
I miss him already.
crying
The last time he had to stay overnight at the vets, I cried SO much!
And today, when I hurt the most, I miss him a lot more.
So that got me down.

And third,
(but this is like more happy then sad)
My parents found a place and two cool house, dont know what model yet, to live in.
And before you guys freak out, let me explain.
Let me explain why I am happy and I am sure you will be happy too.
(if you guys aren't mad at me)
SO you know, my grandparents are moving in with us.
So they are living with us.
Which MEANS we are going to get a big house.
Which makes me happy because I like big house, and what I seen of the rooms of the house, it makes me VERY happy.
And more to be happy, it is here in Michigan, HOWELL!!!
Isn't that GREAT?!?!
So I will be able to be near you guys and still go to the same school!
AND!
It is still in my subdivision.
I am just movign a few streets back.
So all you guys have to learn is a new street name and adress number.
Not that hard right?
So I am VERY happy about that and the moving plans.
I am just happy that it is still in michigan.
THANK GOD!!
SO that brought my hopes up.

So...that ends my journal entry and such and what I thought you guys should know.
I hope you guys read iot all and forgive me.
I didn't really mean it,and I just feel REALLY bad!
So, I'm sorry.
again.
and again
and again.
and you know what...
AND AGAIN!!

Love you guys so much,
Captain Noya (The a** who ruins everything)

-StaarShinee-
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  • User Comments: [8]
    Tzar Snow Wolf VII
    Community Member





    Tue Aug 14, 2007 @ 09:12pm


    Comment.


    -StaarShinee-
    Community Member





    Tue Aug 14, 2007 @ 10:18pm


    ....thanks nick.
    Very touching.
    stare


    -suunshiine-
    Community Member





    Wed Aug 15, 2007 @ 08:43pm


    ok...okokokokoko.../ *breathes* ok... first of all. get better self esteem. not eveyone thinks your a horrible artist, that your fat, or that your and absoulute bad friend. Because your not. your a very good artist, your not fat at all, and your and awesome friend. I forgive you and hope Boots feels better. I wanna see this new house.


    -StaarShinee-
    Community Member





    Wed Aug 15, 2007 @ 10:03pm


    ^_^
    Thanks Jade.
    That means a lot.
    But I can't help my self estem.
    crying


    B r e e a k---M e e
    Community Member





    Thu Aug 16, 2007 @ 02:05am




    There a couple things I'd like to say:

    One;;
    Selfesteem is ONE word.

    Two;;

    Selfesteem is a STATE OF MIND.
    MEANING;; you
    CAN change the way you think about yourself.
    YOU are chosing to think like that.
    And don't call me a hypocrite, because I no longer think I am fat or ugly.

    And if I can do it SO CAN YOU.

    Three;;
    Ok.
    So your not the best drawer in the world.
    WHAT ARE YOU GOING TO DO?!
    Sit and complain,
    OR GET BETTER?!?!?!?!

    Giving in to your weakness isn't going to get you anywhere.

    Start believing in yourself.


    -StaarShinee-
    Community Member





    Thu Aug 16, 2007 @ 07:24pm


    When did I ever say anything about being fat and a bad artist in my journal entry?
    All I am saying is sorry guys!
    GEEZ!!
    Man...this isn't makeing things entirely easier...
    I'm justt feel so pissed right now ok?!!?


    Miss Toxica
    Community Member





    Mon Aug 20, 2007 @ 08:56pm


    I am so confused!
    What did weight and artist skills have to do with this entry?
    Dx
    And don't worry, Dani! I thought it was actually pretty awesome what you did.
    No harm done. Everything is fine.
    We still love you.
    Hope Boots get better! That cat was so cute and fuzzable!
    <3
    YAY! For Michigan, and I hope you just adore your new house!
    -^^-


    alisonlynn
    Community Member





    Sat Aug 25, 2007 @ 05:55pm


    You know, Miss Breeak mee, that was not very nice. And selfesteem is NOT a state of mind.
    And I don't actually recall any bragging or teaseing.
    Can't wait to see your new house!


    User Comments: [8]
     
     
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