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First, the kyaaaaaa! KYAAAAAAAAAAAA!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I'm uber-happy all the sudden ^_^ I'm just soooooo happy ^_^ xd Totally random.
My mom had the "brilliant" idea that I should drive her to go exercise @ my cousin's exercise place, which is in River Ridge. Of course, I had NO IDEA where I was going x_X That's not an experience I want to repeat. And then she made me exercise. I was planning on a good long DDR session, a solid 45~ish minute go with Fallen, but no. It wasn't horrible, but I can't do the running in place thing very well, especially since I'm supposed to go faster than my mom, but the only ppl in the place were me, my mom, Aunt Mary (who's 70-80~ish), and some other lady.
Basically, this is how the place works: 1st of all, it's only for women. That's nice. There's 10 machines, and in between each one is a slightly raised square thing. Today, it was 1 minute running in place on the sqare thing, then 1 minute on a machine, followed by another minute running in placce, then another machine, etc. At the end, you stretch out. Quite nice. I'm not sure how the heart rate thing is supposed to work, though. Is a higher heart rate better, or a lower one? I don't get it, and I didn't askk Mary Catherine (who owns the place).
What is it w/ my family and River Ridge businesses? My uncle's store is less than 2 miles away!
Sad part: Why the hell does the person I talk to the most in the Ev. guild also have to be a cutter? Seriously. Some part of that old insanity is still there. It tugs at me. It whispers to me in the dark. It creeps into my dreams and makes them nightmares. Always there, often quiet or drowned out, but sometimes not. I suppose it's going to be there forever, but who can resist forever? I'm not exactly known for having an iron will. Exact opposite, really stare
I mean, I'm not stupid. Video games are a great distraction when it's the worst, and nightmares are nothing new to me. I've almost started to get used to them. ALMOST, mind, but it's not like they're real...hopefully. I'd hate to ignore something I should pay attention to like I have for the past few months.
The college tour was such a relief b/c I was totally free of everything that preys on my mind in this damn house! I'm stupid enough to sleep upstairs all the time. I shouldn't. But then, I need those video games at night sometimes.
Ah, well, I shouldn't even think about it. That'll just make it worse 3nodding
"Nothing really matters, anyone can see, nothing really matters, nothing really matters to me."
~nepie
 nepie · Sun Jul 15, 2007 @ 12:02am · 0 Comments |
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